Broken glass day 7

 Why will you fell in love with a person?


    "There is no reason to love a person, and I really don't know why...." you said. I never agree with this statement. I choose you for a reason, and I believe everyone does have a reason to choose a person whether to be a life partner, employee, and friend. It should be explainable why will you uncertain about this. 

    The reason you don't know simply because you don't love. Let's throw back some memories. I remember every time when I pack food for you, you did not care about my visit, yet what kind of food was packed was your concern. When I bought a present for you, who bought it is not the concern, but what kind, what brand, and price of the present was concerned. When I drive to your place to visit you, my visit is concern, how many times I visited in comparison with you was concerned. When I dress up elegantly, my beauty is not your concern, but who will I hang out with was concerned. Me, is never your concern, but what you deserve is your major concern. Meaning, you never love me. 

    Isn't love should be non-calculative? I'm not sure indeed. If you often worried about the amount in your bank account and the time you spend for the partner, how could you enjoy this relationship? Perhaps I should calculate for myself. I don't like to hang around in 'mamak' stall, having fast food, and eating supper. I began to involve in activities that I don't like just for you. Do you realize it? Even if you realize, how will you feel? You may say:" I accompany you this this this and that leh?" Hahaha.... the argument is never ended if to be calculative. 

    Lucky is not too late to give up a toxic relationship at the age of 27. I deserve better.

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