Thoughts Diary

Until you reflect on yourself from others, you are actually well-done gurl...     The interviewer often asked: "When was your proudest moment?" My proudest moment stagnent at 12yrs old. I got the best female athlete in primary school, but I lose my friend due to my arrogance. So should I even feel proud? My victory caused me lost my friends and being hated by others, what's so great about that? I failed my interview at the age of 22yrs old. I guess because I did nothing great for myself after 12 years old, hahahaha..... Then I asked mummy, what can I feel proud of myself. Mummy told me: " You should feel proud that you are able to be a teacher and deal with special needs children. This ain't something easy and not anyone can do it. You did it for sometime gurl." Herm.... and then I found that none of my family or friends are working in this field at that time. I should feel proud of myself right? I got my answer for that, but no one ask that question anymore...

 Humans do surprise me, that's why I love psychology..        I am a soon-to-be clinical psychologist. This is my third year and finally, feel that I meet good people in this field. For all the time I felt extremely lonely in the course, simply because I am a part-time student? I tried to approach my coursemate during the second semester and I did gain some friendship. Why will I took initiative to approach my coursemates? Because is not others' responsibility to make friends with you. The current society informs people to always take initiative to fight for what you want and what you deserve. "Time and tide, wait for no man." Even if there are some people who don't want to be your friend, so what? Out of 100 people, if those 100 people refuse to be your friend, that must be you are too "special", in this case, you have to reflect yourself, and this had happened in my life too. Throwback to the times when I was in primary and secondary school, boycotting...

 Got a really sweet talk with her...     She is my client, mother of the weakest student among all of my students. The mother is trying her very best to help her client to feel the interest in learning. I should feel guilty at this place as I didn't put enough effort to help my student. I talked a lot with the mom. Our topic is no longer focusing on children only but rather talk about ourselves. She claimed herself has strong mathematical reasoning and was one of the top student in math class during her school years. On the other hand I showed better performance in languages (i.e. Bahasa, English, Chinese). Therefore I am assisting her child in learning Bahasa and Chinese.     People who has excellent in mathematical reasoning will often be excellent in Science at the same time. I shared my struggle to her in dealing with scientific term, till today i'm still stuggling to remember the damn lobe! She offered her help immediately and solve my problem within an hou...

 Why will you fell in love with a person?     "There is no reason to love a person, and I really don't know why...." you said. I never agree with this statement. I choose you for a reason, and I believe everyone does have a reason to choose a person whether to be a life partner, employee, and friend. It should be explainable why will you uncertain about this.      The reason you don't know simply because you don't love. Let's throw back some memories. I remember every time when I pack food for you, you did not care about my visit, yet what kind of food was packed was your concern. When I bought a present for you, who bought it is not the concern, but what kind, what brand, and price of the present was concerned. When I drive to your place to visit you, my visit is concern, how many times I visited in comparison with you was concerned. When I dress up elegantly, my beauty is not your concern, but who will I hang out with was concerned. Me, is never your conc...